Random thoughts #11_A Slump

Hey I can't believe it's random thoughts #10 already... This blog is getting somewhere with the numbers huh.
There are like 3 people who read this blog but well that's alright. I don't write for people to read. I write for myself.
As you can probably tell from the lack of blog posts, I'm in a slump, a creative slump perhaps. It is not that I don't have ideas or don't want to write anymore. It's more likely to be the lack of motivation. Whenever I open the laptop and start writing, I feel empty. I don't feel the excitement I used to have anymore. At the same time, I want to put out some content. I reckon pushing myself to make content that I am not proud of nor passionate of would defeat the purpose of this blog.
If you didn't know, I'll tell you what this blog is about. It's about sharing things that I find it hard to address in real life. It's about my perspective of well...life, I suppose. It's about a different me. It's a closed space for me to express myself without worrying about being judged. It's something that I am proud of because believe it or not, I don't think there are many just normal people like I am, are blogging for their own sake. Excluding big professional bloggers because well that's not what my blog is aiming for. I feel like the kids at my age are aiming for something else or they are interested in things that I find rather "unrealistic" or "purposeless" to me. Not that this is realistic and serving a purpose. I just think this blog is at least real. There is not a single word on this site that isn't authentic. Not that I am "better" than the other kids nor do they "better" me. We're just different and I respect that. I take pride for doing this; for sharing what I love and passionate about.
However, this slump sucks. I was told that successful people get off track but they get back in track quickly and the "losers" get off track but beat themselves up about it. The question is how can I get back on track? It is always easier said than done.
I'm at a phrase in my life where I don't know what I want for sure. I don't know what to do to figure out what I want. I am insecure and unmotivated.
A slump, in short.