Come spring come

You once said "Let's meet before spring comes."

Spring already came but where are you now?

I know you had a lot of worries and concerns. You had a lot of internal conflicts. Those were so excessive to the point that you couldn't bare it anymore.

I'm sorry. But you're a star on the sky now. My favorite star ever, how have you been?

Do you see we cry for you? Do you see your brothers cry for you?

I know that you also cried for us numerous times and I'm sorry for couldn't be able to wipe those tears for you

If only time and work didn't drift you and your love ones apart...

If only the pressure didn't kill your light...

If only someone could have lifted the weight off your shoulders...

If only you were here...

But my dear, I'm glad that you no longer have to endure all the pain by yourself. You've been shining long before 25th May 2008 and you'll always be shining way after 18th December 2017.

When you become a star in the sky, I will sometime look up to the stars above and find comfort for the first time because I know you're there.

When you become a star in the sky, your brothers will also find you among thousands stars because you are unique and beautiful.

When you become a star in the sky, my heart will sometimes crumble because I need your light here.

When you become a star in the sky, your brothers will smile despite the presence of the dark night and they may also shed a tear because they miss you. Because you could have been here to witness the beauty of the world with them, in the same interlude .

But it's alright my dear. If that was the path you chose, we would respect that. I hope that you're happy with your decision. 

My dear, please excuse us for being too sorrow and hurt in this current situation. It's not you that hurt us. It's something else, something we don't know just yet.

After days, after months and after lightyears, I will always look forward to spring because you once said "Let's meet before spring comes"

When will THAT spring come, my dear?

The spring that we can once again rejoice in happiness...